Sorry blog, I’ve been neglecting you a bit lately.
Well it appears I actually have visitors, so I suppose I should keep my blog alive.

Not much news lately really, alls been good.

Been pretty ordinary weather, lots of rain and wind.

But with all the stock market collapsing and such, I should have invested in US Dollars when it was near a 1:1 ratio with the AUD, 100,000 USD bought back then, sell it now would have been a 30% profit.

Well too late now, but I suppose what you guys could do, those of you with money looking to invest, is buy a house in 6 to 12 months time, everything -should- with a little luck be cheap.

My hands are sore, been on the computer too much lately.

Been listening to some 80’s and 90’s hip-hop/rap. Like MC Hammer.
Weird, I’ve never been an advocate of rap but it’s OK.

Anyway, back on the road of recovery. I’m not going to bother with past school friends, I’ll get new ones.

Found this quite funny:

1. Sonny Bill Williams - Bulldogs deserter

2. Amrozi - Bali bomber dubbed the smiling assassin

3. Belinda Neal - Tantie-throwing, night-clubbing federal Labor MP

4. Wayne Carey - Misbehaving former AFL player

5. Nick D’Arcy - Dumped from Olympic swim team over assault claim

6. SA Attorney - General Michael Atkinson

7. Pope Benedict

8. Indy 500 General Manager, Greg Hooten - banned booze and boobs.

9 & 10. John Earnest and Anne Deaves - father and daughter who became dad and mum.

11. Big Brother 2008 winner Terri

12. Corey Worthington - Melbourne party boy

13. Greg Norman - golfer

14. Mercedes Corby - convicted drug smuggler’s sister

15. Schapelle Corby - convicted drug smuggler

16. Peter MacDonald - James Hardie boss who avoided paying compensation

17. David Miscavige - Scientology boss

18. Dennis Ferguson - accused pedophile seeking compensation

19. Kyle Sandilands - radio host

20. David Koch - Sunrise presenter

21. The girl from the AAMI ads

22. Marcus Trescothick - English cricketer

23. Rove McManus - comedian

24. George W Bush - US president

25. Toadie from Neighbours

26. Bank CEOs

27. Japanese Whalers

28. Radovan Karadzic - accused genocidal Serb leader

29. Sheik Yamani - price-rising Saudi oil minister

30. Martin Lawrence - actor

31. John Darwin - Briton who faked own death

32. Sarah Jessica Parker - actor

33. Jamie Oliver - TV chef

34. Todd McKenny - Radio and TV host

35 & 36. Rick Dyer and Matthew Whitton - gave false hope to Bigfoot believers

37. Judge who jailed lesbians in Dubai

38. Gordon Ramsay - foul-mouthed chef

39. Britney Spears

40. Patrick Swayze - gets cancer, continues to smoke

41. Tamsyn Lewis - Olympic athlete

42. Amy Winehouse - drug, booze and self-pity hound

43. Pamela Anderson - no-show for Zoo Weekly

44. Madonna - singer

45. Joanna Griggs - voice of the Olympics

46. Heath Franklin - comedic performer and writer

47. Peter Hore - serial pest

48. Heather Mills - Paul McCartney’s former wife

49. Tim Johnson - the Firepower man

50. Milton Orkopolous - former NSW pollie and convicted sex offender.

Pope Bennedict? Why him?

He does have a strange resemblance to Darth Siddius. Darth Bennedict… Heh.

Well apart from the jazz stuff I normally listen to, I’ve been getting into some old rock and such, as well as some new rock. The Offspring mainly, which I downloaded all of their songs - thanks to Sanity’s Loadit - who are stupid enough to simply uninstall it’s own addon in WMP and allow me to create another trial, using a different email. So I’m happy just downloading all of their songs free of charge and in good quality format.

Apart from them, Joe Jackson, and The Rolling Stones as well as some others.

Quite fun.

And my tongue piercing is getting along quite well, some salt stirred in with some warm water seems to reduce the swelling, although it is quite painful after a sleep. Wish I had some ibuprofen, all I have is paracetamol.
No pain no gain I guess.

It’s been about 3 weeks since I last saw my doctor, and I think I really need it, I need more powerful anti-depressants as I’ve missed a few days and it’s really affected me it’s getting a bit bad.

Anyway, I’ve always wanted a tat so I want to get one, but not allowed, so I decided to settle with a piercing of the tongue - happening tomorrow, will be awesome, except for the fact I wont be able to talk for ages and dad going to kill me if he finds out.

A tat would be nice, a cross of some sort on my arm, or a depiction in art of my story, of ups and downs, and to end it with a recovery which will be done once I’m out of the hole. I’d need someone to draw it, as I’m hopless at drawing.

Still soldiering on, please bear with me life, I’m a bit distant.

The reason I was targeted in school was because I was a much more mature person.
After leaving, I slowly dug myself into a deep hole which I am still in, I think I have lost most of my social skills, and become somewhat of a freak.

I’ve been talking to 2 particular people I have known from school, and however unfortunate it is, I feel I am not being listened to, they still aren’t mature, I fail to have a serious conversation with either of them, it’s quite depressing.

I’m desperate for something to do, my current activities are like a broken record, same stuff, there’s my left side which wants to try new things, it poses a risk, my right side, doesn’t want to due to the risk that it could turn out bad.

It really sucks, depression, I’m affected by it, and I doubt I will ever be the same because of this experience, if I could postpone it for some months, or years, and have it effect me when I’ve settled with a wife and kids, so that I could enjoy some of my teenage years with peace and tranquil and have atleast a few friends more than I do, it would be great.

But I’ll keep soldiering on, day by day, week by week.

Through MySpace I was able to find a few people I used to go to school with, one particular person - Lorrie, has he changed, from a modest person to a “gangster” within a matter of years. It reminds me how lucky I am to have a good upbringing.  I always thought there was more to him, from what I have seen he can dance quite well, the typical modern hip hop style, and he has his own clothing line - how big, I do not know, from what it tells me, small it seems. I always knew he was a pretty boy, different hair colour every other week.

I have sent messages to them, I do not know if all of them will get back to me, I was not a very popular person.

For hopes sake, I hope they do, it would be good to get in touch.

Right now I’m sipping on a double strength Jack Daniels, and listening to some good music.

Genius, a new toy by iTunes suggests songs based on your selection, just select a song in your playlist and it’ll suggest top songs by the artists that you don’t have yet, and it can create playlists via the selection as well. Similar songs/genre etc.

Haven’t played with it much, but it seems OK.

Finally, I got my gun, yesterday I had a good go of it, and I must say I am pleased with it.
Also, the toy I decided to receive - Apple Airport Express doesn’t want to work with me, so I will be giving that back, so I decided to up my budget and buy a fully fledged media center, that can play audio and video, the only loss really is that I can’t stream to it, but it’s a HDD enclosure so I added a 150GB SATA HDD to it, more than enough even with FLAC audio.

But I received it by courier from Australian Air Express - I specifically asked for Star Track Express. So it’s a loss of a customer to EYO, I will not buy off them again, they’ve had their chances and they failed. I’ll look elsewhere in future, they may be more expensive, but it’s better than running the risk of my item being lost in transit or stolen - which has happened before.

Sanity’s Loadit.
Check the media usage rights, mine says “this file can be played until the 11/09″ well, that’d be 14 days AFTER my signup. Great. Well, there’s always ways around things like this. And I’m glad I had converted the files, and I will probably use all of my 300 free downloads and convert every one of them so I can play it until my hearts content.

I’ve found some great artists, such as Clarence Carter, another blind singer, and he’s singing is up to par with Ray Charles. Although there will be no replacement for The Founder of Soul, there will be people just like him, and Mr. Carter is just that. They’re both extraordinary singers, they can’t be compared really.

My list is ever-expanding.